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You say I am loca because I am your girl
You say I am stupid because I am your girl
You leave me out on the steps you dress me up like a boy
You say that I am your secret love
You say to be quiet but I want to tell the whole world
I like my neighborhood I like my gun
Drive in my little car
I am your girl and I will protect you
We do it in the back of my little car
Pull up my pants and fix my bra go on home to your kids
I'm going to be quiet and I'm going to tell the whole block
I like my neighborhood I like my gun
Drive in my little car
I am your girl and I will protect you
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im getting closer
03:57
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i wanna see you every day
i wanna see you all the time
but every moment i waste
seems so familiar
i wanna crave your touch
i wanna be someone you trust
but im too hesitant
go away
my eyes open my chest
your body opens the heart
liquid seeping the sheets
day after day
it feels like a parasite
i left her in the dark
would mama ask me about
the cuts you made on my fist?
"look away
dont be scared
dont make me
hurt you again"
rip my skin off, take me for a ride
im getting closer, im getting closer
i grew my nails out to prove some sort of point
im getting closer, im getting closer
the wind in my hair and vomit in the back seat
im getting closer, im getting closer
the words "im sorry" felt empty in your head
im getting closer, im getting closer
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blood oath
02:25
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i woke up in the middle of the night
from another nightmare about you
i wanna get away without a trace
but it seems there is no right way to leave
im not coming home
a fog covers our hands
split me over again
am i really so unlovable?
swallow me in the past
its not a mistake
when i apologized for that night
i thought it was alright, why didnt you say
youd ditch me in a home that was safe
well i thought it was safe when you were okay
but now we're both bleeding our fears
the spirit haunts me every time that i speak
we made a blood oath together
to never hurt again
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ceremony (new order)
02:22
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This is why events unnerve me
They find it all, a different story
Notice whom for wheels are turning
Turn again and turn towards this time
All she ask's the strength to hold me
Then again the same old story
Word will travel, oh so quickly
Travel first and lean towards this time
Oh, break them down, no mercy shown
Heaven knows, it's got to be this time
Watching her, the things she said
The times she cried
Too frail to wake this time
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why, my body
02:05
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if you grew up in front of my mirror
would you know whats in my head?
i cant explain why my body freezes up and
every muscle turns cold
i cant make out the words you whispered
in my ear
if your mother called you five minutes later
would i know why youre in my bed?
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I got idea man
You take me for a walk
Under the sycamore trees
The dark trees that blow baby
In the dark trees that blow
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interlude
01:40
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please, rest
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crossfaded (rabbit trap)
00:49
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im crossfaded and its overrated
i think i taste my blood
feeling stupid feeling like im jaded
naive and volatile
if this is lonely then im acclimated
to life with calm regrets
getting high railing your apprehension
through a ten dollar bill
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perceived light
02:13
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im looking for my future in the light
i look straight into the sun and then my eyes burn
its dumb and naive, yet i cant ever leave
solace in archaic amalgamations
the light
an understated demise
the light
her excused misuse
the light
oh, the light
ever present even in the night
n blurry-brained i fake out all the time
emulated the stars, becoming one again
i wanna be the next nineteen fifty nine
but inside the dark past overshadows
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someday i will see you
for who you really are
a clear heart disfigured and aching
i want to see you dance
somewhere between
reality and a dream
i know ill be inside of you
every day the solitude inflates
i feel light-headed light-hearted
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dreamy
04:01
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sitting on your bed
at midnight
the stars fill my heart heavy
i look into your eyes
i dont know you
but baby i dont wanna worry
i think that someday
ill see the truth
but for now i think im okay
i cant recall how
the seasons change
i hope that memory is still with you
cause you fucked me up
really bad
i dont wanna talk about it
was it all real
or just in my head?
i dont think ill ever have an answer
im too scared to think
youre everywhere
and god it feels like im burning
one day ill be clean
one day ill die
and then maybe ill finally be free
its so impossible
to get it out of my head
i cant ever see clear
im fucked up and shut down
i go where the breeze takes me
im living in hell
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13. |
bucket list
04:51
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last christmas (wham!)
01:10
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last christmas, i gave you my heart
but the very next day, you gave it away
this year, to save me from tears
ill give it to someone special
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moon phases
01:12
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star dust, moon glow
still fog, night warmth
my body falls inside the night
feather, call her
still dead, her bed
an undying plea inside my chest
what does a name mean when im in this place?
what does it matter if ill never say it?
i wanna know so i can clear the air
i cant be stable when the moon revolves
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safety
03:50
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